I'm the youngest in my family, the gap between my siblings and I, too far for us to converse like friend, there fore, we don't talk much or do any activities together. ( I'm quite jealous for those silings who they can hangout with family for a movie or doing activities together) I don't really have a childhood friend, my childhood friend is my cousin sister who used to stay near my house and she moved before i turned 6.
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I've used to had more than 9 or 10 social networking sites (friendster, badoo, netlog, tagged, hi5, orkut, facebook..etc, every single social sites that you can think of, most probably I'm the 1st who use among my friends) just to look for friends, for some companion and to waste my time.
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Maybe I'm getting older, or maybe i know there is no way that those 'friends' will be the person that can back me up when i needed them, i left with 2 social networking sites-- Facebook and Friendster.
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And also, there is an application in Facebook for user to categorize who will be their top friends. I'd more than 20 few months back. Now is less than 10. Because now i categorized my top friends as someone who i can share my feelings and thoughts with, or someone who i pay respect and connected with.
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Life is just like taking bus ride. We are one of the passengers. Passengers will leave the bus when they've reach their stop. Same as friends. They will come and go, no matter how close they used to be.
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It is not easy to maintain a good friendship. I realized, i have only few even though i have more than 400 friends in my Facebook. I know for sure, i don need these 400 plus friends to make me happy, i just need my friend who will be there for me when i need them. But somehow, i know i cannot too depend on my friend as they also have their own life and friends too and eventually, they will have their own family in the future. By that time, will our friendship stay the same?
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I'm really grateful that there are still people who could listen to me patiently. God bless them. And I'm grateful for those who treats me honestly, with their heart, without their mask on.
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I love my friend who really care for me, unconditionally. Your caring touch my heart..utterly
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MMm... i've got this interesting test from my friend (sook jing) today and below are my scores =)

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The Five Love Languages

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

I feel loved when...

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

Interesting right?? I do really wish to have quality time to spend with my love one. Find out your own type by clicking the 'Take the Quiz!' Good Luck finding your needs!

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Life is all about learning, everybody knows that. It is a never ending learning process until the day we've gone from earth.
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Some people learn from mistake, and by that they improve to be a better person; some people deny what is happening to them, and they will never realized how much they've missed in life.
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Every human being make mistakes. The problem is do they care to or try to compensate the disaster they'd caused, do they have the enthusiasm to chance the outcomes. And of cause, some mistakes need to be forgiven by the person they've offended, in order for them to continue this life-long learning process. NOT EVERYONE WILL OPEN THEIR DOOR FOR YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN TO WAIT UNCERTAIN RESULTS.
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The truth is, not everyone will have another chance to make things better. People who do not appreciate the chance, they treat it like another round of game; for those who treasure the chance, surely they can make something better than before. Chance is like a turning point of life for people who treasure them, they see chance as a gift from a mercy heart which probably could also makes them tears in happiness when they've given another chance.
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So who deserves the chance? Uncountable of people waited for their life just to get a chance and why do the unappreciated needs another chance to disappoint people again? Life is weird though. Human mind is complicated, even more complex when they've grown up.
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Lots of the time, from what i observed, people tend to seek something that they aren't sure what they want rather than just focus and treasure the thing that they already have.
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Stop looking for someone who need your help and look carefully around you, listen carefully who is there waiting and crying for help, or you'll lose your chance to help in the end.
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* Just appreciate everyone besides you, or you'll lose the chance to care about them*

Hello, how are doing today?.
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That is just a simply question, yet, it could shows how significant you are to those who ask you that.
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I feel happy every time i get to see people asking this simple question to me, it shows that, my friends actually still remember my existence. I am someone to them in their life.
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Smile, is another thing that will affect ones mood. It is good to see people smile, their smile makes me smile too, unconsciously. Now i remember how my relatives used to said they always see me smiling, i smile because I'm happy to see them, and i get the happy smile from them back. =)
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Same philosophy, smile will get infected. Smile influence a person mood. Smile does not cost you any money, or your life. A smile to people around you, makes their day different. A help to a total stranger, makes your day better too!
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Few days ago, i was back from college and got in a bus. Followed by a lady behind, who she does not have small change for the bus fare. I saw the same situation quite a few times already, every time, i wish i have the confidence and brave in me, so that i could go forward and help them out. This time, my confidence came out from nowhere, i started to seek for small change for the poor lady and guess what, I don't have RM5 change also, therefore, another idea strike in my mind. I offered to pay for her, regardless of anything in return. Well, it really makes my day. I was damn happy that i can help out a lady who was nearly got kick out from the bus and save her embarrassment. We smile at each other, had some small talks.
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It feel good that people recognize our efforts, our existence. This is why human living on earth i supposed? According to Maslow hierarchy, there are 5 needs in human, let me explain them to you step by step.
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1st will be the PHYSIOLOGICAL NEEDS. In other word, basic needs. Human need breathing, food, water, sleep, homeostasis , excretion and sex. Believe it or not? Sex is categorize as basic needs.hehe =p
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2nd will be SAFETY NEEDS, it could be fulfill only if they have their physiological needs. What is safety needs then? It's the feeling of security. Security of your body, your family, a house to live in, your health, property and etc. Basically, it means that things that could be control in your hands..
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3rd is LOVE/BELONGING NEEDS. Human get their food and sex and home to live, now they will look for some companionship. Friendship, bf/gf relationship, family bonding.. and etc... Talk about belonging, i feel pathetic for people who is always a loner. They've got no one to talk with, no one to share their probelms with. So please be apprecaite for your friend's existence in your life.
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4th will be ESTEEM NEEDS. Once one had already achieved the previous 3 needs, eventually they will seek for more, that's is the greedy part of human--sometimes is good also, to have ourself improve in some way. Self-esteem, confidence which plays an important role in our life, also can be the tool to destroy someone life. People who they have self-esteem and confidence in them, could socialise and perform much more better in every acpects in their life rather than those who is low in self-esteem and lack of confidence. Respect others, and you will get the some respect back.
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The last is SELF-ACTUALIZATION NEEDS. Well, matter of fact, this is the hardest for a human being to achieve. It includes morality, creativity, problem solving, lack of prejudic, acceptance of the facts..etc etc.. To achieve this, we have to know well about ourself and can control our emotions, EQ.
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Opps.. too much of lecture until i sesat on my topic. Ok lets come back. So in short, we have to help ourself in order to help others. Do the same to other as you wish them do the same to you too. So smile to them who you wish to see their smile. Care about others if you want to get the same treatment back, of coz it will not be 100% they will tret you back the same, but at least, your heart will feel better if you do so.
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*Sorry for another silly blog but this is all what is in my mind*

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People always leave....
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Eventually, everyone of us will leaves sooner or later, to end our life on earth..
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If everyone will leaves somehow, how should we live on earth in the first place? Ain't it sounds contradict? Some people born in a rich family to live easily... no need to worry about basic needs at all.. *want wind got wind, want rain got rain* life is worry-less and fun for most of them; while this is the totally different for people who works hard just to make sure they have their stomach filled up.
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Anyhow, rich or poor also encounter the same problem when their time is near. So what if you're rich now, you will have to leave them to others when you leave; or else you can also bring them with your cold body.
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For people who over depends on their parents; for those guys who never helped in house chores; for them who treats their parents like their maid, what can i say? Parents already spent half of their life taking care of their children, some of the parents even need to take care of their own parents too ( means granparents ), so when are they gonna be grown up (mentally) and start taking care of their parents who's already spent half of their life? Who knows when is their time to go? What happen to those people who get used the serving of their parents if *touch wood* they're already on their way to heaven? Ain't it be pathetic to parents who leave without anything in return, or feeling appreciation from their child ?
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Therefore, please... to you all people, start helping in house chores, even just a small talk, a simple smile, and stop ordering parents like it is something that supposed to be (it is really supposed to be when you're a baby/mentally disable yet ) ; or you should hire a maid to repay your parents, to decrease their house chores, enjoy the rest of their life peacefully and worry-less.
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Remember, people always leave...remind them how much you love them and treat them the best you can while they're still around you.












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Happy Father's Day to all of you!!  =)

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I guess most of the people celebrate father's day with their lovely family, and of coz the main character in this whole point of father's day *their father la!!* every year. Bet I'm just not that lucky to be one of them though. Father left me just about a few days before i've turned into 12 year old. Even though it has been a long while ( like 10 years already ), but i can still remember very clearly for his outfit, his smile, his hairstyale and those grey hair that grew on a short, fat tailor's head!! =)

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*I was the princess in the family when father is still around, Ahha!!  He never ever scolded me or punished me before, even though i throw tantrum at him, coz I'm his baby little girl *

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In year 2009, I've celebrated my 1st ever father's day with Adrian's family. ( If I'm not mistaken, i celebrated with his family in year 2008 also but i don't have any memory of it ) It's an advanced celebration because we celebrated on saturday! It's been like 2 months or moroe since i met his family so when everyone saw my present, they show their concern, asking me how I've been and what I've been doing or why so long did not see me hanging out with them. Suddenly i felt so much warmth from this family * love is in the air! * really, you won't believe how much love i've found in his family, a family that everyone wishes to have for.  =)   I'm so gladful to all these. I've been blessed to meet Adrian actually. *of coz i clearly know that it is not my family*

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Throughout the whole dinner session, lot of loves, laughters, jokes, gossips, respects flowing between conversation of 3 generations. Grandparents, parents and our generation. It's really hard to have those communication for all generations when they gather around together in these days, but amazingly, it occurs in Adrian's family! Guess that the God has been blessing Adrian's family with His graceful heart. 

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And thanks to Adrian too who unintentionally occupied my free time of missing my father with his activities, we went for paintball game today in Sungai Buloh. The place is called 'Tanamera' which located inside a small jungle. *quite big if you're trying to walk the whole places*   We played for about 4 hours for that and what i've got home for souvenirs are bruises, bruises and the sign of a 'sprained feet'.  =.=

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It was all fun and i sweat like a mad dog. ( The last time i sweat like this is 4 years back, when i went for the National Service ). I felt awesome letting out all sweats in this 4 hours time. Then , we headed to a mamak stall in Shah Alam, which Adrian brought me there once before. I was the only outsider because they were all from the same secondary school. It is really great to join in the small talks, well actually i was just listening to their stories back in secondary school life. It was just a normal drinking session but surprisingly i was so enjoying the environment instead of feeling left out. And again, joy and laughter spreading constantly throughout the whole yum cha session. * the spirits of youth babeh!! *  Apparently, he is a guy who's always laugh and happy. This is the real person he is. This is the only thing that I'm sure of. 

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So maybe someone can tell me what is life about?

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 *Ain't the answer should be -to live happily everyday ?*

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I wonder when can we talk like before.. those funny and sweet conversation we had is all what im craving for all these while..

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Not too sure what has happened but...................

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I REALLY MISS THAT ADRIAN AND PHOEBE !!!     =(

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*  now i know why ppl always wish time will turn back , if i really can, i will keep you as my best friend until the end of the day *